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Never, never, never give up!

10:51 PM | Coda: , ,



I haven't blogged in awhile, but I really don't have much to say and work's been crazy. I must say, when you earn more, much more is expected of you.

Anyways, I have been battling with an upset stomach for the 3rd week now already. I don't know what is it, but its always so bloated that I feel as if it's going to burst. Seen the doc, and got some meds, but the stomach did not seem to react to them. Sigh.

The marathon is this weekend. Anyone ever ran with a bloated stomach? I haven't gotten down to any serious training this time around with the workload and then the upset stomach. Am not even sure if I can actually run, let alone complete it.

But I'm going to try anyhow. Because I'm a runner, and runners don't give up. :)

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About the new job...

4:04 AM | Coda:

So it's been slightly over a month at the new job. Work's been busy, and filled with quite alot of uncertainty I must say. My co is currently experiencing a wave of changes, and it feels as if we are going through a phase in the cycle where there is some sort of a manpower "renewal".


There have been lots of resignations and new staff around me, and yes, I am a tad worried, as I'm now the only person left in the events department once my other colleagues finish serving their notices.

I have a boss who is busier than Obama I think. To give you an indication of how things are, of the month odd that I have been here, the total no. of hours I spent with her added together amounts to less than 24 hours.

She does not have time to guide me or sometimes, even to give proper instructions. All the stuff I did and had to do were guesses on my part, and asking and looking around what my colleagues did. Thankfully, with the training from my previous job, did help me to make "clever guesses".

Still the learning curve is steep as healthcare conferences is not my forte afterall, and honestly, I don't like working like this. Not one bit at all.

Despite that, thankfully, I have a sane boss, who, so far, does seem to be a good boss. She would jump in and "protect" us from getting pushed around by external parties. Also, she cares enough to make sure that the workload does not overwhelm any of us.

That, is something I do appreciate.

Close friends have been trying to convince me that I should probably start looking for another job, as mass resignations often are tell-tale signs of problems with either the management, the organisation, or the workload.

So far, I think I like my boss, tho colleagues have been complaining about some of her quirks. I have not personally experienced any of that yet, or maybe, after you came out from hell, your tolerance for nonsense gets higher?

Workload is crazy actually. Looking at all the things my colleagues have to do, soon, it will be my turn nearing to the event date. I hope we get replacement staff like real soon, else all the conferences listed on the calendar is going to fall on my lap. Not fun.

I'm on the fence actually. I'm not really sure if I want to stay on, or to find another job. On one hand, I feel like I want to help my boss, tho I do feel that perhaps, its not within my means.

Also, I don't have the heart to resign on her now especially after her telling me how upset and demoralised she felt with all the resignations. On the other hand, I'm afraid that the longer I stay, the more emotions I'll invest, and then it'll be harder to leave.

Sigh. :(

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Cheers to a brand new beginning!

2:24 AM | Coda: , ,

2010 is finally over. I'm glad to move on to a new year and hopefully, this year would be a much better and productive year for me. For the most part of 2010, it felt like it was on a fast forward mode for me.


Things were happening real quick especially with work being so hectic, changes in management, which inevitably mean changes in the way we do things. New management means new rules, new temperament, new expectations, new everything.

I did not enjoy 2010 actually. Though I must say, that 2010 did indeed see me travelling about mostly the ASEAN region quite abit for work. It was indeed an eye opener to experience the vast difference in culture and the way our Asian neighbors do business in general.

2010 was also a struggle for me too. It was a season or rather, trend of last minute events coming my way. The stress and pressure cooker environment that I had to work in for the large part, all by myself was daunting and traumatic.

I was glad tho that after much persuasion, my boss did finally agree to let another colleague work on events with me, but that opened yet another chapter of problems.

With the additional headcount, boss was expecting technically for us to cover the jobs of 2 persons each. But as I was doing the jobs of as many as 9 - 10 persons myself, he is in fact expecting us to cover the workload of 18 - 20 persons.

And you know, with a person new on the job, that realistically isn't going to happen.

Of course my new partner is a smart girl who has initiative and learns pretty fast too, but it doesn't help at all in managing expectations from the boss and the fact that all of a sudden, people become so critical with regards to how resources are being used, and profitability.

I kinda feel that it was my fault actually. I have spoiled the market in the beginning, and everything just snowballed from there.

My world came crashing down on me during one of the events I was working on. A major screw up led to a series of ugly situations, and one problem after another. Can't really blame anyone actually. Millions of oversights on my part due to dips in my productivity level of course.

Sigh. How I wished I had raised the alarm early in the beginning. My friend is right, I ought to learn how to manage myself better.

Sigh. What's done cannot be undone. To be honest, I can't get over it, and have been deeply affected by it till now. The feeling of letting people down feels totally disgusting that it makes me nauseous. Truth is, I am finding it difficult to face my client, who happens also to be my friend.

Anyhow, I am glad to have 2010 over and done with. A church mate I met after watch night covenant renewal service said to me: may this new year be a year of personal bests. Indeed, I long to start anew, a brand new beginning, a year of personal bests not just in terms of running.

I want to start 2011 right in the right place, with the right frame of mind as well. Decisions have been made and I pray for grace to keep to my promises.

Have a blessed new year everyone!

*P/S: EL, if you are reading this, I'm terribly sorry, I know probably that no words can make up for all that has happened.

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FML

5:28 PM | Coda: , ,

I have not blogged in awhile, I realised. Thing's been going wrong of late I must say, and life's been so hectic that it's crazy. Been mad busy the past couple of weeks.


For a start, we landed ourselves in a job to put together an event cum press hospitality for an office opening, where Lewis Hamilton will be in town to officiate and participate in the ribbon cutting. Sounds exciting huh?

Not. Not when we were only engaged to help barely one week before it all. I've had many instances where we've helped clients manage events within short time frames, but one week?? SERIOUSLY?

All that mad running around, last minute decisions to make and also uncertainty especially when the company is big, and MANY different parties are involved in MANY different things. It's a mess, no decision makers, conflicting instructions, NO TIME and internal trouble makers.

Yesterday, I totally snapped at a colleague who has been irritating me the past couple of days. For the first time in a long while, I totally lost my cool at someone and screamed at her to shut up.

She has seriously been irritating bugging me about the seeming lack (according to her) of toilets and urinals for the guests at the venue like they are all going to hyperventilate and start foaming at their mouths and die cause they were made to queue for toilets.

Which probably meant that I'm in trouble if everyone needed to go at the same time that urgently.

Maybe it's her mission in life to hit the toilets at every event she goes, but not everyone does. I have other bigger issues to worry about like branding, audio visual equipment, event flow, etc etc, nothing is confirmed and here she is making such a huge fuss about it and totally making me "discuss" with her why and how we cannot have more toilets.

I felt totally stupid with the capital S for even engaging in that discussion with her.

AARRGGHHH!!

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*Warning* ANGRY post!

8:44 PM | Coda: , ,

Today is a horrible day. I can't believe the attitude of the people I have to work with. In fact, they are so incredulous that I feel as if my eyes are about to roll off from rolling them too much *rolls eyes*.


I am seriously sick and tired of all the nonsense that has been going on for quite some time now. Right in this company, you DO NOT freaking have the luxury of sitting there and wait for others to tell you what to do. Have some initiative and pro activity.

Contrary to popular belief, I am NOT anybody's nanny, I have my job to do too and I have my own KPIs to meet, I AM NOT here to do YOUR JOB for you or let you make YOUR PROBLEM MINE. Please f***ing take up YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY!

Now don't even get me started on the quality of work and the "everybody-owes-you-a-living-prima-dona" fuck shit of an attitude that you think is "oh-so-appealing."

It is NOT.

I honestly can't, for the life of me, understand why would anyone want to submit substandard work and display mediocre behavior. Like, isn't it demoralizing to know that your work is so.. f**ked up? I mean, isn't the WHOLE POINT OF life or ANYTHING to improve and come out as a better person, no?

So why would anyone not give a d*mn about their work, or look for ways to keep trying and improve instead of offering the BARE MINIMUM piece of crap?!

It's like, you want to make a dress. You would complete it, make sure that the fabric is of good quality, the finishing is neat and sturdy and not tear after one wash and so on and so forth, no?

If you are going to only sew one side of the seams, sew the pockets and buttons halfway, you might as well don't do it at all, waste energy and materials isn't it?

And I haven't even talked about all the other work that is being plagued with the tai-chi-ing syndrome, and the remaining rest of the time is devoted to pretending the everything so NOT YOUR JOB.

Which really makes me think, what's the point of having such a person on the payroll then?

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