Things are looking good!

I still have about 8 more work days to go and I can't wait! It's funny how after going through 3.5 long years of sheer misery, the last 8 days seem so ridiculously grueling.

Anyways.

I must say that since tendering, I did indeed feel alot more happier and am definitely more cheerful. There is a certain gladness in the heart that gives me that smile in your sleep kinda feeling.

Of course, its not that things at work have gotten any better, it still is crap (actually its much more crappier now) but I realized that I no longer take certain people and the things that certain people do that seriously anymore.

Honestly, I have myself to blame in part for my misery. Friends who know me know that I can be overly serious at times, and truth be told, I really took the things that certain people say/do VERY SERIOUSLY which was why I was so freaking miserable.

I must say that I don't regret my decision to leave at all. I really needed to break the cycle, and it was definitely one that was a downward spiral. Deciding to leave really opened my eyes to alot of detrimental habits, environment and situations that I was really too blind to see previously. So in a way I was glad that things turned out so bad as that literally forced me to make the decision to leave.

It was totally the situation of leaving is tough, but staying is way tougher.

I like the purge of negative energy and the feeling of hope that things are only going to get better! For the first time in a long long while, I actually felt that tomorrow will only get better and I'm EXCITED!

Also, I found a job while serving notice, and will be due to start work on 1st March after I sign the appointment letter tomorrow. So I am actually going to get the entire month of February off before starting work. Am so looking forward to a decent break with ECP outings with Susan!!

Oh, and did I forget to mention that I am going away for a trip to Hong Kong and Macau with the family in the 3rd week of February? EXCITEMENT!

Things are looking good finally!! I thank God for His grace to show me the detrimental ways I have been living in and setting me on the road to recovery. I feel blessed!