Sian-zation

Im into week 3 of the new semester and I JUST REALISED IT!!! Drats! I think Im losing my form. Somehow, I feel i lack the drive and the zeal that I seem to have when I just started out this course, which was like... 4 months ago?? This is only my 2nd semester, and im already feeling this way... Goodness, I wonder how am i going to survive the remaining one and a half years.. Sigh...

FUMING...!!!

Anyway, work has been pretty screwed up too. The reservation department's bitch in my hotel has been giving me problems. Loads of it in fact. She is always COMPLAINING and COMPLAINING and COMPLAINING (oh, did i mention that she complains?) that she is as busy as hell, loads of backlog waiting for her to clear, and what fuck what fuck. And just because she is busy, she assumes all others are so free. (I just don't understand WHY she thinks that the people on the sales side are so goddamned fucking free.) She have been pestering/demanding/begging/psycho-ing me to help her with some of her backlog and all, DESPITE my boss REPEATEDLY telling her and us "NO." Some people are just so perverted. They seem to really enjoy being rejected time and again... oh well... (till this very day, she STILL hasn't given up as yet... persistance isn't always a virture...)

Quite honestly, i DON'T and NEVER wanted to help her. Not because i am selfish or lazy or unhelpful or whatever. I just didn't want it to become a habit and subsequently a RIGHT that i SHOULD help her (why? because im so free according to her standards) and besides, my boss have got a point too, each department have different responsibilities and have different priorties, if you think you are ssssooo busy, that means your department is SHORT-HANDED, so go hire another to help you out, and not "BORROW" from another department. But the problem is, some people just don't get it. And it has seriously reach the point where my boss is getting irritated with me thinking that i cannot seem to understand a straightforward and simple instruction: "NO." and probably thinks that i want very much to help her, (which is of course is not the case) and that explains my frequent complains or rather feedback and my "feeling bad" that she has requested me to help her again. Well, yes, i do feel bad, and to some extent, "fucked-up" because i seriously have been rejecting her for the umpteen time already, to the extent that im really getting sick and tired of it all. Simple, straightforward answers didn't work well on her, so i decided NOT to talk to her more or entertain her. And guess what?? that earned me a title of being a bitch with a serious attitude problem. Makes me wonder all over again, why did i even bother to explain things to her in a NICE AND HARMONIOUS way in the first place??? That bird brain. (Seriously, my seemingly growing impatience with dim-witted people is overwhealming.)

Recently, she tried a not-so-direct way to approach it. She got one of my senior sales managers to talk to me. Nice try. (Obviously not good enough tho) One of the biggest problem with her "latest stunt" is well, that sales manager is quite easy going and believes in harmony (and all that jazz). Now, that has indeed raised ALOT of complications. And obviously, my sales manager contributed ALOT to the "fucked-up" feeling i have of the whole fucking episode (which has led to boss's growing impatience with me). That bitch would complain day in day out to her all the work load she has, and AGAIN how BUSY she is (can't they try something new? always the same old script, how boring...). Sometimes, i really have to hand it to her, she managed to psycho my sales manager to come talk to me about it. (of course, NEVER failing to mention that reservations people are oh-so-BUSY...... and indirectly saying that im idling away) Well, to hell with it!! ENOUGH of all that "try to help out as you can", "different departments should help one and another" bullshit. If this goes on, then does that mean that the next time the housekeeping department is short-handed they can call the sales department or rather, ME to go help them wash toilets???!!!

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Ah well... FUCK IT. I give up. No point explaining, talking nicely, to such people. They just lack the "substance" up there to even understand SIMPLE ENGLISH, let alone get what you are talking about. Right now, I JUST WANT TO GET THE MESSAGE THROUGH TO FUCKING STOP BUGGING ME AND LEAVE ME ALONE!! Point across.

p/s: My sales manager is really a nice lady who keeps to herself and believes in harmonious working environment/relationship and as such, fell prey to some malicious people.