I need a break

I think I seriously need a break. I have come to realise that I cannot stay at one place for too long, or do one thing for too long, cos when that happens, I become even more short tempered, and I'll start screaming at people even at the SLIGHTEST issues.

So yes, thats what's happening lately. I get irritated at the SLIGHTEST issues. I get irritated when people get to to do something, when people delay a little while in submitting some stuff to me, hell, even when people just call me, I get FUCKING irritated.

Man, I begining to hate hearing my name these days, I would go "NOT AGAIN!!"

I'm trying very hard to control it, and I must say, that I haven't exactly been very successful at it. People who don't know me well enough would pobably think that I have a very bad attitude, not that anyone has said that to me as yet, but I know thats probably what they think of me now.

I remember the time when I was doing a similar stint of studying and working when I was in my first year in poly. And yes, my temper was really bad. I screamed at almost everything, to the extend that I felt that it was enjoyable, and that I loved to scream at people.

I almost lost a good friend of mine because of this tho. She was also my colleague, and well, I screamed at her too. Well, we sorted things out, and so remained as friends, but we have since drifted apart lots, so what difference does it make anyway. Heck.

Ok, I'm digressing.

Anyways. I'm really wondering if its a good idea to quit my job and finish my studies first. Hopefully I will be able to fast forward my studies that way (if I don't fail of course). But then I need $$$$. Sigh.

This is taking a toll on my mental state. I'm beginning to scream and get irritated at the slightest issues, or even no issues at all!! Just like my poly days when I was working and studying.

Ok, I know. This entry is pretty pointless.

I NEED A BREAK.