I wonder...

I wonder, why do people behave the way that they do...

I wonder, why can't some people talk nicely but have to shout at almost everything...

I wonder, why do people rush the living breath out of me for something they deem as so urgent but refused to get it done themselves...

I wonder, why do some people complain at slightest thing and almost everything, even the color of the sky irritates them...

I wonder, why do some people chose to be bastards and bitches when there are more than 101 professions in this universe...

I wonder, why can some people be so blatantly selfish and inconsiderate, doesn't their conscience prick them?

I wonder, why do so many people get a second or third or even fourth chance to make amends for something that they have done wrong, while I don't even get a chance to do ANYTHING let alone say have a chance at appeal...

I wonder, why do some people always criticise others' actions even though they hardly know them...

I wonder, why are there people who mock others' choices and then turn around to make the exact same choices...

I wonder, why are some people so lucky and yet they don't count their blessings, where there some who are not as lucky and yet tresures anything that comes along their way...

I wonder, if there was a previous life, who was I? Was I Hitler or Stalin or Mussolini, who have been so curel and hence have to pay for my debts in this life?

I wonder, why do some people, who are very pretty, very slim and everybody who knows them says so, still complain each and every single day saying that they are fat, needs to have plastic surgery and all, where people like me here have never had a taste of what's it like being slim except when I was a kid...

I wonder, how can some people be so cool and detached where here I am, being so emotional at every single fucking thing in my life...

I wonder, how can some people find the time to update their blog where here I am struggling and burning fucking late nights trying to rush OUR report for the deadline the next day...

I wonder, how is it so easy for people to change a job and partner like changing clothes where here I am, single for the past 6 years and currently struggling to find a new job...

I wonder, why is it that no matter how busy I am or how tired I am, I am still able to find time to reply my msges where my frens think that being "busy" is the prefect excuse for not keeping in touch or replying calls or msges...

I wonder, why is it that people I call or used to call "friends" seldom keep in touch with me, and never replies my msges, but when they need my help, can call or msg every other 5 mins just to get me...

I wonder, why is it that I'm willing to be there for a friend who needs a listening ear but when I need help or comfort, they make a quick exit or simply ignore my msges...

I wonder, why do some people feel scared of me when all I'm doing is to care and be there for a friend...

I wonder, why do my kind gestures always go so unappreciated...

I wonder, why do some people choose to read between the lines of what I said (even tho I didn't mean for any hidden meaning) and then condemn me for so long and "retracted' their friendship and yet expects me to still be there for them...

I wonder, why do I time and again spare a thought for others when others just take advantage of that fact and doesn't recipocate...

I wonder, why do some people refuse to admit their mistakes and push the blame to others when they have the chance...

and I wonder why there will be people stupid enough to believe them or should I say, have less enough morals of their own to just ignore the truth and go with the flow...

I wonder, how is it that I am so reliant on technology and could probably die without it when my forefathers have lived without technology for don't know how many decades and were able to accomplish big things...

I wonder, why people just cannot be forthright an upfront about things and chose to put up a show and wayang around instead, isn't it more tiring and time consuming this way?

I wonder, when would my break come, or will it ever come...

I wonder why I complain so much despite knowing that things would never get any better, and only for the worst...

I wonder, why don't I ever learn and why I put up with the above shit for so many years...

I seriously wonder, why do I even bother...